My Own Worst Enemy

I am almost certain that I could be diagnosed with both trichotillomania and dermatillomania. I feel as though they kind of fuel each other. A mixture of pimples, ingrown hairs, horrible skin from eczema, cat and hay fever allergies (it is my theory that these cause irritation and inflammation on my face) and beard growth have been driving me insane for years.

I am quite surprised no-one has said anything about it (outside of my family), but maybe I am just ignorant. I try to control myself, but it always ends up coming back with stressful situations. I always start rubbing/scratching/squeezing on something until it becomes a problem. I have to keep reminding myself that there is no problem with my skin and I am making it worse.

Riding the push bike to work is helping, since I don’t have a mirror to look at myself in (and would ultimately be more ashamed of picking in front of it).

I am on the road to recovery. I have been most of my life, so if you see someone you think might be engaging in some automatic picking you should mention it. They will probably be embarrassed and you might help them out.

fear of socializing due to appearance

This quote from the wikipedia article is really important for me. I have a very bad body image and it really struck close to home.

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